Apathetic Inaction

your action of apathetic inaction

tells me that you don’t really care

your mouth keeps telling me you do

your chatter deafens my ears

please don’t insult my intelligence

with lies to make you feel good

save your words for the distracted

unobservant world of people who stood

watching and waiting for me to implode

die off and leave this planet so cold

you all buried me a long time ago

it’s more pain than I can bear just so you know

thank God for my son because his actions show

that his words are truly true so, for him, I don’t go

it may not be up to me much longer I’ve been told

can’t play a losing hand so it’s time that I fold

©February 5, 2018 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

They All Look Away Instead of Looking My Way

not a bit of empathy being shown to me

stop staring I don’t want your pity

all I want is to be given some courtesy

so painfully obvious is the apathy

left behind and rejected by society

can’t, even, get concern from my family

seems everyone preferred me when criminally

behaving with no ties to bitter reality

probably because I didn’t need or ask for any

help to simply exist in circumstances miserably

was I a serial killer-rapist in my last life, seriously?

nothing makes sense when I think about it logically

my life’s been on a decline since I found sobriety

causing me to question all I ever knew spiritually

hopelessness taking over everything inside me

heart’s been broken so much that it’s empty

this isn’t the way I was born nor how I want to be

had an abundance of love, compassion, and generosity

that was then and this is now; it’s all “used to be”

I’d rather be dead than continue on living this way

can’t believe in a merciless God so I don’t pray

with any luck today will be my very last day

©February 1, 2018 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

Criminal Presidency

criminal mentality controlling this presidency

every day is worse than the last; killing democracy

so tired of trying to get all the blind people to see

how corrupt and fucked up this prick wants it to be

trump cares nothing about ethics, truth or justice

he’s a tool being played making the world a mess

greed is his motivation selling our country for less

while Nunes spins a sideshow trying to digress

from facts and reality reinventing darkness from the past

but, like Nixon and Watergate, this madness can’t last

Fox news is RT, republican television needs a new cast

the entire right wing is culpable so I’m putting them on blast

for dismantling institutions of justice and going at the press

Intelligence sees this for what it is there’s no need for us to guess

poetic, cosmic justice demands none of us will rest

until this shit-show ends with prison receiving guests

seize their funds, property, and everything they love

everything that matters to them then strap on a rubber glove

strip them down for a cavity search; give their colons a rub

in general population; gangs take turn showing their love

©January 30, 2018 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

By the way, for those of you who aren’t familiar with my writing style, I use lower case for words in which I have no belief or love unless a capital letter is necessary to eliminate confusion or to stress something important to me (like “Intelligence).

Declaration of My Independent Thought Process - **Reworked/Edited

this is the Declaration of My Independent Thought Process

an open mind made to heal the blind who can't see the mess

paranoid ignorance of our constitution causing idiots to imply a revolution

in a state with a small population, that leads the nation in air pollution

no separation of church and state

within this state of hypocrites filled with hate

get ready to hit rewind

because you'll be going back in time

as soon as you cross over this state's line

Sanity gets harder and harder to find

than someone with an open mind

to call them narrow is way too kind

you can't expect to have a rational debate

with people who have sex only to procreate

causes the teenage pregnancy rate

to be higher than any other state

the NCAA wanted "Dixie State College" to eliminate

"Dixie" because of what that word implicates

because of its ties to slavery in the southern states

news showing bronze statues being ripped up during Civil Rights debate

then the news feed cuts to local retirees attempting to quickly postulate

saying "mormon settlers planned to grow cotton” really? in this desert climate

do they believe that shit? maybe we have found the missing links to the primate

but that was another failed attempt to hide the fact that Utah is a prejudiced state

a bunch of rednecks with "rebel flags" the older mormons don't hesitate

so goes attempting to rationalize our state's paranoia as it relates

to an amendment written by revolutionaries to whom it applied

apparently the law makers in this red state believe Obama's sending the FBI

this closet-racist congress in a state where rational minds are hard to find

haven't studied the law or rules of “supersede” nor how it's applied

delusional, irrational, unsubstantiated motives pervert their minds

wasting more energy to pass a bill into law the governor claims he won't sign

enter the church-state that abhors facts, women, and anyone with an open mind

amendments to laws to level the playing field in a game white men designed

back to the intellectual decline within this state whose congress lost their mind

a religious belief where God marked the evil people with darker skin

because all people in the world were originally white? what of the melanin?

"Thou shalt not lie... Thou shalt love thy neighbor..." I'm not here to judge sin

no personal agenda, just pointing out noticeable facts, form your own opinion

©March-April of 2013 -- Tamara Imes-Nicholas

Enough is Enough

absolute moron; Neanderthal from birth

if he only had as much intelligence as girth

shit-show, con-artist, used car salesman

he’d have been in prison if not born with millions

can’t call this idiot, mafia wannabe my president

I’d rather have my tongue ripped out and sent

to live in an uninhabitably harsh environment

than use it to utter the sacred word of president

when referring to such an obviously ill equipped,

intellectually inept, emotionally stunted and stripped

from ties to reality he needs to take a fucking trip

back to Russia stay there until he gets a grip

on the concept of honesty, humility, and empathy

knowing him he’ll arrange for another hooker to pee

which is a sign that he hates himself so much internally

it’s his mind sending him strong messages subliminally

but he’s not capable of looking anywhere internally

can’t self-reflect, introspect, there’s nothing insightful

about this cretin with Russian money he’s so pitiful

God help us all if his party doesn’t grow some balls

get the toddler out of power before the world falls

into complete and utter chaos followed by war

come on people; we’ve all seen this movie before

it doesn’t end happily, there isn’t a silver lining here

GOP grow some nuts and quit living in political fear

put your country first for once you NRA owned fucks

think of the next time a man takes a gun and goes nuts

like the one who had it right trying to eliminate your kind

at the baseball game; he had the right idea in mind

I don’t believe in shit like that; I’d rather use my vote

but your gerrymandering shit turned that to a big joke

haven’t you all seen enough violence to figure it out

of course not; gun control you won’t even talk about

it’s a disgrace that people can amass such weapons

then kill so many innocents without learning lessons

you’re party is just as guilty as all those lunatics

because you won’t do shit; you’re a bunch of pricks

more worried about the political fall out and the hits

you’d take by NRA money or the redneck constituents

America’s about defending the greater good we’re told

is that just another ideology created in order to be sold

to the public to justify all the heinous shit done for real

by our military whenever civilians are being killed

it’s time to own up, grow up, enough blood’s been spilled
that's right, (I forget) if the shooter's white, it's no big deal

©October 6, 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

Less Painful than Kicking Garbage Cans

look, you and I both know the truth

how you treated me was entirely uncouth

the, daily, way you showed Tshaw and Pam

they’re the only ones for whom you gave a damn

giving them continual preferential treatment

while showing the entire class that I meant

about as much to you as a brutal anal tare

like I was some pain in your ass, which was so unfair

I mean, what did I ever do to you Andrea?

I was always nice and honest any time I dealt with ya

I may not stoop to kissing your ass, but hey

it’s nothing personal; it’s never been my way

seriously, I tried to explain everything in that email

told you many things I’ve learned so you wouldn’t fail

not that I know everything there is to know

but I have a lot to offer to those who want to grow

your disdain for me started on that very first day

it started out subtle, but you went too far Friday

you know exactly what you did; Angie does as well

but, you’ll both still be important when you get to hell

you shouldn’t take this poem as a compliment

this was done for my sanity; it’s the safest way I can vent

©August 16, 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

The Truth Shall Set Me Free while Karmic Justice Imprisons You

I awoke, suddenly, early this morning

asleep long enough for another warning

another prophetic dream was transmitted

prepared me for a day I’d rather be omitted

showing me in detail that I was the target

of a group of women at work who I’d just met

they joined together trying to get me fired

how can people be so hatefully wired?

I’d understand if I tried to hurt them intentionally

but they were going out of their way literally

fabricating and taking truth out of context

before I started work I knew what was coming next

if any of them actually knew who I was “for real”

things I’m able to do directing emotions I feel

they may not be so obsessed with bringing harm

to this innately gifted woman known to charm,

summon and communicate with Universal Forces

mastering every gift given her without any courses

you see, lately, it’s not even up to me what happens

to anyone intentionally hurting me it just depends

since the decision comes from the Infinitely Divine

but one thing I’ve noticed is that it’s perfectly timed

personally, I like that I don’t have to do a damn thing

to bring about the Karmic justice; I just see the sting

but, if I’m being totally honest about how I really feel

I’d make sure each one of them knew the whole deal

I mean, when they were handed their just dessert

they’d know from whence it came and who they’d hurt

not for reasons of ego, vanity or anything unhealthy

it’s, just, the only way to ensure that the opportunity

for their ability to learn concepts of universal laws

science and Spirit conjoined as Divine Truth because

both Physics and Karma factually state that every action

creates an equal or greater reaction; brings me satisfaction

I may have left work in lots of emotional and physical pain

but if things continue as normal I will likely have to refrain

from celebrating justice being served once the circle

of what goes and comes around lights my crown purple

to be perfectly clear, I take no joy from another’s pain

I, do, find joy with the progress of another human being

©August 14, 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

Feed Your Brain with both Hands

let’s feed your brain with both hands

don’t snap your wrist with rubber bands

because I’m unable to comprehend

I just can’t seem to understand

why so many people hate upon me

it really is, just, so fucking crazy

considering they don’t even know me

hatred’s all I ever get given freely

don’t they know how lucky they’d be

to spend quality time in my company?

despite the hard exterior they see

I’m full of kindness and generosity

quit projecting your own shit on me

look deep within yourself honestly

if you’re successful you’ll finally see

everything that made you all hate me

was owned by each of you entirely

now that you’re able to see things clearly

I invite you to pull up a chair beside me

I don’t expect to be liked by everybody

but as long as we converse honestly

I’ve no doubt that most of you will see

I was never unkind nor out to make enemies

all I have is love for you and I give it freely  

©August 11, 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

Moving His Mouth to Tell all those Lies

“there are no ties to Russia..

there’s been no collusion..”

are you still, “loving email” Donny

I know your brain’s one big contusion

but just cuz you’re fucking stupid

doesn’t mean you’ve caused confusion

amongst us who’d never vote trump

because we’re this country’s solution

unlike your paranoid, devoted base

we don’t fall prey to your delusions

I wanna thank you for being corrupt

you can take credit for the revolution

we all knew you were unfit for the job

from day one you’ve caused demonstrations

you’re a reckless, dangerous, greedy fuck

effortlessly destroying this nation

like Putin we all know you’re just a tool

we don’t even have your full concentration

tell me, after two and a half hours with Putin

did he climax after full penetration?

I bet he gave you the “golden shower”

on the “pee-tape” he has in his possession

I mean, a closeted, gay love affair

would, definitely, explain your weird obsession

with him and all the other “powerful” dick-taters

never seen a narcissist with more infatuation

for any face that isn’t his own within the mirror
but a soulless vampire, like you, has no reflection
you've alienated us from all of our allies

with your gift of mental masturbation
like a monkey you're flinging your own shit

it's a twitter-shitter storm causing the situation
Don Jr's, truly, the apple that didn't fall far

from the tree of "no-knowledge" he's your creation
showing a genetic predisposition for self-harm

a perpetual need to cause devastation
so unpredictable that you're predictable
I predict a slaughter in the next election

©July 15, 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

The Walls that Kept Me Safe

I, really, don’t know where I should start

not, even, a surgeon could find my heart

I displayed selfishness as a work of art

built impenetrable walls, but they fell apart

the moment I gave birth as a new mother

I was, always, really close with my big brother

had a great relationship with both older sisters

then I made a mistake getting too close to a mister

my beautiful walls couldn’t be rebuilt

even with so much irreconcilable guilt

despite needing the safety of a shield

I’m, still, a mom with an innate curse to feel

I wish I could change the way people are

but, it is what it is, and life’s become too hard

way, too deep are my numerous scars

still, each night I gaze upon the stars

I wasn’t really selfish; generous was the real me

to whom I showed it was a choice I made freely

most people never seem to understand me

they’re all fake; they don’t know how to, just, “be”

frankly, I’m sick and tired of explaining

and, even with my son, I hated potty training

but, with adults who are stuck and remaining

childish pricks pointing fingers and love public shaming

I’m sick of all the pain that I continue to feel

being told to “shut up” is a big fucking deal

when it’s my son who won’t let me begin to be “real”

if my, own, son has no capacity within him to feel

whenever those feelings slightly pertain to me

things everyone needs; compassion, love and empathy

I’m not asking too much so why continue to “be”?

all I want is to be loved, just, for being me

©February 2017 – Tamara Imes-Nicholas

The Poser Poet

As I read through the NY Times article posted on Twitter about Fiona Apple's "ten word chant," which she created for the women who'll be marching in D.C. in protest of DJT, I came across an apparent Juggalo poet (remember, my definition of Juggalo refers to the political Insane Clown Posse). The poet-juggalo's name is Joseph Charles McKenzie and the article included an "in part" version of the poem he wrote in support of the PE. According to the article "the poet wrote a poem praising the PE and his Scottish heritage. The poem refers to Mr. Trump as 'the Domhall,' the Scottish form of his first name."

What "The New York Times" printed for that partial poem was as follows:

"When crippling corruption polluted our nation
And plunged our economy into stagnation
As self-righteous rogues took the opulent office
And plump politicians reneged on their promise
The forgotten continued to form a great crowd
That defended the Domhall, the best of McLeod!"

That (sell-out) poet and the printed portion of his poem is the reason for this (my) latest, in what will certainly be a very long stream, of rants with the incoming president. Yes, I referred to McKenzie as a sell-out. Why? Because artists, in general, are liberal for many reasons. One of the reasons being that 99% of them have endured many, painful struggles. I'm sure everyone's familiar with the term "starving artist," right? Well, it's because nearly all artists have know real poverty while in pursuit of their dreams. In the case of poets, especially, most live out their entire lives with little to no financial success or even any real notoriety. 

That's why nearly all artist (those who've achieved success and those who died without any success both) support the Democratic party, which is the party whose fundamental ideas involve social policies and programs that help the poor, sick, disabled, disenfranchised, women's rights and all others that republicans continually defund or try to eliminate.

So, yeah, if he supports Trump he's either not a real poet or he's not very studious. Either way, and even if I didn't despise Trump, I don't see anything exceptional about that poem (even if it is only a portion of the actual poem). I make that statement fully aware that I have written and posted more than my fair share of "shit work." It's because I'm aware of my own ability that gives me a feeling, nay, a knowing that I'm not out of line with my opinion.

A Tribute to President Obama and His Legacy

I know President Obama is way too composed, calm and methodical with his approach to addressing the public so I have stepped in to tell the world what he is too humble to say in the way he has held himself back from speaking out loud. To all of the republicans who made it their only priority to ensure that the first Black President would not succeed (to such an extent that they would, literally, shut the federal government down at the expense of the American people). I selected the song "Legacy" by Eminem to represent the legacy of the first African-American President of the United States of America. I didn't choose it because Eminem is a rapper and President Obama is black. I chose Eminem's "Legacy" because President Obama has set the bar extremely high for all presidents to come - not despite being a black man, but despite the closet-racism exercised against him by legislative republicans. The youtube video of "Legacy" that I chose isn't the normal music video, rather it is a video that shows the lyrics as they are being sung. That way those of you who don't know the lyrics or haven't ever heard the song will be able to know the synergy between the song's lyrics and the elements that President Obama was forced to endure from the GOP. 

Mr. President, sir, I have seen you for who you (truly) are and I am so sorry that the "bullies on the playground" hated you from day one because you were black and more intelligent than they, as the entitled white men they are, would ever be. Then to add insult to their injury (of your winning) you weren't, just, far more intelligent than they'd ever be - you had more integrity, reserve, honesty and every other positive personality trait coupled with moral values. None of them would ever admit openly the real reason that they would rather destroy the country and American people than assist in (even) a sliver of your success; which was, is and will forever be because you aren't merely a black man - as the first African-American President you would set the stage for every election to follow. 

They had to make certain that you'd fail at everything (to hell with the consequences) because if you were able to have even one success during your presidency it would show the world that "manifest destiny" is (and has always been) white supremacy bull shit. To quote Donald M. Scott's article for The National Humanities Center in New York, "Manifest Destiny was also clearly a racial doctrine of white supremacy that granted no Native American or non-white claims to any permanent possession of the lands on the North American continent and justified white American exploration of Indian lands." Sorry for the long rant, but believe me it could be even longer with everything I'd like to vent to this nation's home-grown threat towards human decency, social policy and programs, foreign policy and diplomacy, etc. 

Mr. President, sir, I am so sorry; not only for you, personally, but for all Americans who are affected by the GOP putting partisan politics before the American people. Sir, I will miss you greatly (even if DJT hadn't won the election, but especially since he has won - if that makes sense). You accomplished so much in the last eight years - more than any president in my lifetime and you did it with such class, reserve, humor and all while putting the "koo" in "cool."  Yes we can and YES YOU DID!

Listlessness plus Apathy Equals Disaster

our movement's become listless

too many people have missed this

the clenching of our fists

buckle up now because I'm pissed

an incredulous narcissist

whose prejudice was so obvious

with which he never digressed

in fact, he won with this

disturbing is the apathy

I'm seeing all around me

securing their victory

even freedom has a fee

they're getting ours for free

don't take this so lightly

prosecute this robbery

without an apology

their motives are ugly

it's white supremecy

it's manifest destiny

using national security

to obscure their agenda

it's perpetual propaganda

using cliff notes from Russia

they made sanity a pariah

he kept saying, "the system's rigged"

he kept calling her "crooked"

his loyals are hooded

their motives are lurid

yet majorly supported

amongst the most putrid

the results will be horrid

with conflicts of interest

he's growing his business

without any laws to stop this

they put the shame in shameless

both the senate and congress

ensure a smooth process

with rolling back all our progress

leaving behind an enormous mess

assuming there's anything left

by this conman who's very deft

in all aspects of white collar theft

I wouldn't hold my breath

©November 27, 2016 - Tamara Imes-Nicholas